I've been wanting to up my dosage of lexapro for a while to see if it will help me as an antidepressant, obv, but also to see if it will help me cut back on lorazepam (and alcohol, to an extent), but I've had such ups and downs with antidepressants and side-effects I'm so wary of it... Keep thinking it's not the right time, I have things I need to do, or I have to make money because my family needs it, or I'm not stable enough to deal with it, or. Ultimately I'm just too lazy to go to the doctor because I also know I probably need to... change doctors, or push harder to get a therapist instead of be thrown down the dead end that is psychiatrists & psychologists (I did it once, it made a very bad impression).

My stress has been really something this week but hopefully it'll lessen again on its own now my mom's not around making sad faces.