Get a hold of yourself, woman!
Aug. 11th, 2005 06:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
st_aurafinaIt's just plain stupid to be anxious about not updating my journal. This is supposed to be an anxiety-relieving exercise, after all.
I've been mostly thinking about fandom, and how I'm relating to it. I haven't been reading fic for very long, except for the occasional time that![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
lilacsigil has directed me to something she thought I'd be interested in. I think she was slowly luring me in. I hadn't really been independently browsing fandom until I started my LJ. That was six months ago, and I'm having a little muse about what I expected, and what I found.
I expected that I'd mostly be reading inside the fandoms that I follow, so X-Men, Harry Potter, Buffy/Angel, maybe Firefly, maybe Trek.
Actually, I'm finding fic that I like in fandoms that I didn't know anything about, that have led me to follow up on those fandoms. So, I've been trying to catch up on Farscape (got stuck at the end of first season, because it was all too awful and sad, but I'm hoping to be brave enough to get going again), and Alias (motoring well past the point where I first gave it the boot in second season). I'm watching Lost, and House for the same reasons. This is great, but I don't have the epic TV watching muscles that I used to.
I really couldn't have anticipated my addiction to DC porn. I didn't read much DC before LJ, but now I get Nightwing, Gotham Central, Birds of Prey, and I'm catching up on Robin. Oh, those bad, bad boys. I don't know the backgrounds, I don't always know who they're fooling around with, but I can't stop reading about them. I'm blaming3jane pretty much for that.
I expected I'd be able to read fic at the same speed as I would read a book or a newspaper, but instead I have to slow down to the pace that I read comics at, which is slowly, carefully and not for too long, or I lose concentration. I don't know why that is, but maybe it's because the first fics I read were from comic based fandoms, and I use that part of my brain when those characters are involved, and that's how I read fic now. I find it interesting because I'm not a slow reader otherwise.
I think I thought that I'd be less shy using an LJ, but I'm not. It's still really hard to leave feedback or make comments, but I do it because it's good for my soul. I still feel like a bit of a freak because I don't actually write fic myself. When I leave feedback, I worry that I've said something weird or unfannish, and that person would have been happier if I hadn't.
I wasn't expecting, and am really enjoying all the discussions about fandom in general. That's cool, and smart.
I've been mostly thinking about fandom, and how I'm relating to it. I haven't been reading fic for very long, except for the occasional time that
lilacsigil has directed me to something she thought I'd be interested in. I think she was slowly luring me in. I hadn't really been independently browsing fandom until I started my LJ. That was six months ago, and I'm having a little muse about what I expected, and what I found. I expected that I'd mostly be reading inside the fandoms that I follow, so X-Men, Harry Potter, Buffy/Angel, maybe Firefly, maybe Trek.
Actually, I'm finding fic that I like in fandoms that I didn't know anything about, that have led me to follow up on those fandoms. So, I've been trying to catch up on Farscape (got stuck at the end of first season, because it was all too awful and sad, but I'm hoping to be brave enough to get going again), and Alias (motoring well past the point where I first gave it the boot in second season). I'm watching Lost, and House for the same reasons. This is great, but I don't have the epic TV watching muscles that I used to.
I really couldn't have anticipated my addiction to DC porn. I didn't read much DC before LJ, but now I get Nightwing, Gotham Central, Birds of Prey, and I'm catching up on Robin. Oh, those bad, bad boys. I don't know the backgrounds, I don't always know who they're fooling around with, but I can't stop reading about them. I'm blaming
3jane pretty much for that. I expected I'd be able to read fic at the same speed as I would read a book or a newspaper, but instead I have to slow down to the pace that I read comics at, which is slowly, carefully and not for too long, or I lose concentration. I don't know why that is, but maybe it's because the first fics I read were from comic based fandoms, and I use that part of my brain when those characters are involved, and that's how I read fic now. I find it interesting because I'm not a slow reader otherwise.
I think I thought that I'd be less shy using an LJ, but I'm not. It's still really hard to leave feedback or make comments, but I do it because it's good for my soul. I still feel like a bit of a freak because I don't actually write fic myself. When I leave feedback, I worry that I've said something weird or unfannish, and that person would have been happier if I hadn't.
I wasn't expecting, and am really enjoying all the discussions about fandom in general. That's cool, and smart.
